The year mark is so much harder than anyone could have prepared us for.... you really are not ever walking into my doorway again or calling on my phone or IMing me or bounding down the stairs... really..
sorry i wasn't there any earlier in the day at the one year mark Torr...but i didn't know. it wasn't like me to be so late on the 16th (except for the night i landed in the snow--obviously) and i was so looking ahead to this one year mark to try to replace my memory of that horrible day last year. I never really did do that alone in the dark after work. but i hope you're cool with this late night pic i sent along. looks like you had a busy day. miss you still. g
aren't most trying to replace memories of that day? except maybe her mother and father who know what this means, especially as people move on in their lives, as they should, and as we support and admire from a distance away. the 16th of May was anything but celebratory and neither one of us wanted people there at the mass at 7 am. we did not tell people, but those who knew to ask were told, of course. we were not all "looking ahead" unless it meant to leave here to go find her. "looking ahead" to make sure everyone knew about May 16 2007 would have entailed a glibness that could not be mustered. This grief is selfish.
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Torri does not have busy days anymore.