Torri Wightman

I went to Derby Camp and was on Torri's soccer team. I've always remembered one day when it was raining and we were playing on the slide. I remember climbing up it, tripping and her saying my name and laughing. Her laugh always stuck with me. I hadn't really talked to her since when we were little. I was the one who gave you the drawing of her. I saw her picture in the paper and drew it as a sort of release from the shock and sadness.

Anyway, tonight I was just browsing around on myspace and I came upon her music page. It was haunting. I sat at my computer and cried for an hour. I went on her website and watched her videos too. I was laughing and crying at the same time. She was soo funny.

Well, after being drained from the tears and bright computer light, I went outside on my back porch to look at my willow tree and tell her how much she just made me laugh. The sky was bright blue with wispy golden clouds. A flock on geese flew by and at the same time another flock of tiny little birds.

I sat there and wondered, and then started walking, thinking to myself "torri, give me a sign you're up there." And in my head i was actually thinking, "paint a big T in the sky for me"......3 minutes later I looked through the trees and saw it. I got up and there it was...a big distinctively T shaped cloud next to my willow tree. I cried again and thanked her and blew her a kiss.

Certain things like that don't just happen. You're daughter is an angel. She really is watching over you, just like she said in her song. If you'd ever like to talk or cry or anything... I havent done it in years but I'd be happy to go to church with you or visit her grave anytime.
stay strong
love,
Tara

Manchester, NH

Friday

saturday

sunday

I made her stay on the phone with me til now.  I randomly just got really paranoid.  I heard hospital noises coming from somewhere in my house.  It only lasted like 10 seconds but then I heard a faint flatline and it made me jump to this conclusion that my mom is dead.  Nice huh?  Yeah, I am wicked fuckin scared.  I mean, I know I am just paranoid but... what if I have this sixth sense?  Ahhh. I love my mom.

                                                                                                                                                      if I called out to you

if I screamed out you

patiently holding and stroking my arm that's all bruised

if I yelled out your name

if I said please come save me

cause I'm falling and crawling away from the life someone gave me

my head, meeting with my pillow my sheets

my head, hopelessly meeting my dreams

this was the last song Torri downloaded from Limewire... I just came upon it today and wanted to share the lyrics

In Christ Alone by Brian Littrell

In Christ alone will I glory
Though I could pride myself
In battles won
For I've been blessed beyond measure
And by His strength alone, I overcome
Oh, I could stop and count successes
Like diamonds in my hands
But these trophies could not equal
To the grace, by which I stand

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

In Christ alone will I glory
For only by His grace
I am redeemed
And only His tender mercy
Could reach beyond my weakness
To my need
Now I seek no greater honor
Than just to know Him more
And to count my gains but losses
And to the glory of my Lord

In Christ alone
I place my trust
And find my glory
In the power of the cross
In every victory
Let it be said of me
My source of strength
My source of hope
Is Christ alone

photographs by Angela Sterling 

in August of 2004 Torri did a photo shoot with Angela Sterling for the day.  the story line created for the shoot was that she had died in a car accident but did not know she had died...